Dirt: My life

When my oldest daughter was a baby,

someone gave me a bit of advice that was really helpful 

in making me feel like I was accomplishing things as a stay at home mom.

The advice was to write down everything I did. 

Everything. 

Diaper changes, breastfeeding, shower, etc. 

It made a big difference in the depression I was battling.

Lately, I have gotten overwhelmed by two things. 

The lack of accomplishments of being a stay at home mom.

The overwhelming tasks that are not getting accomplished.

Paradox, I know.

I struggle with mild depression occasionally. 

Usually seasonal, but also out of the blue it will hit me.

When things get me down, 

I usually resort to the "poor me" attitude of an angry adolescent girl

And, I usually resort to " I hate this house/my clothes/ my hair".

So, it really makes sense that with the anticlimactic period

that comes after a great vacation, 

the fact that I hate August

(it comes between the fun part of summer-the 4th of July and my birthday),

combined with 14 miles of baseboards to paint, I am feeling overwhelmed.

So, I have started one of my favorite things...a list.

I will not bore you with the details of it...

(Highlights of the morning list)

• woke kids up
• made lunch,
• drove kids to school
• ran 3.5 miles
• took dogs outside
• took garbage to curb

See, EXCITING!

I am working my way back to organized and not overwhelmed...one list at a time.

And if that doesn't cure my depression, 

there is the thought that  September is only three days away 

AND I can always think of this...

I love you, George!